This belief of mine goes back to pre- 2000 when I would tell my husband and my mother that while driving, while cleaning, cooking, folding laundry or ironing, I would “see a scene play out in my mind like a film strip”, and low and behold a few weeks or so later it would play out in real-life.
This had
happened to me countless times throughout my life and over many
years, and I always chalked it up to having psychic abilities.
However, this was not the case.
I distinctly remember having
one of these “film strip scenes”, where I was, in the scene;
weighing 120 pounds, having a tiny little waist, defined muscles and
had somehow become a personal trainer. I was beautiful...a total
knock out.
Having five children, being 50 pounds or so
over-weight and in my late 30's at the time, this seemed to me to be
some sort of fantasy or wishful thinking, diets never worked for me
or I just didn't work with the diets. Whatever the case, to me
at the time it was nothing more than a fantasy and so I let this
“fantasy” go and continued my life as normal. Yes, I strongly
desired to look like that, especially after being over-weight as a
kid and into my teen years, but it was a fantasy.
Fast
forward a month or so later and I came home from picking my kids up
at school and my husband is in our family room putting together a
Universal home gym.
Mind you, I had no idea that he had even
planned to buy it. He literally had gone to Sam's club that day, saw
the gym at a really good price and decided on the spot to buy it
because HE wanted to get into lifting weights.
My husband
would work out a few times a week. He bought Amino acid powder,
protein powder etc. and me being me, wanted to make sure he
wasn't taking anything or putting anything into his body that would
hurt him and so, I began to read up on supplements, powders and
weight lifting and oddly became very interested in it and began also
to work out a couple of times a week.
I did not take any of the supplements or the powders but I began working out and doing my upper body on one day, lower body on another day etc. Just as I had read to do and I continued to learn as much as I could about weight lifting and fitness.
By month two, I had been eating a high protein, low fat and low carb diet. I had cut out all soda, all junk food and I was now working out three to four times per week. It was becoming addictive.
During this time, I had never once weighed myself.
I just knew that my clothes were fitting me
differently, much of my clothes began getting really big on me, but I
never weighed myself. I just enjoyed that I had time for myself and I
was getting a healthier body. Rather then focusing on my weight, it
seemed like I was sculpting my body because it was looking different,
it looked better and it was really cool to be able to have the
ability to do that.
By month three, I was working out five,
sometimes six days per week. People were really making a big deal
over my body and how I looked. To them, it seemed like I had dropped
a bunch of weight really quick and so they would ask me what I was
doing and I told them.
Before I knew it, I had many mom's coming to me asking for advice, asking me how to lose weight.
So,
after talking with my husband I decided to learn more, take a test
and get my personal trainer license and I did.
My oldest
daughter was getting married now in only a few months, and so I
needed to be fitted for a mother of the bride dress. Before I went to
do this, I decided for the first time to weigh myself because I did
not want to be embarrassed going in there and having a stranger size
me up for a dress, and so I wanted for my own knowledge to see what I
was dealing with on my body. Yes plenty of people were complimenting
me and asking me for advise, but my mind was still the 50lb over
weight, 30 something out of shape person.
The scale read;
119lbs. But, it still didn't set in. The dress; a size 3. It still
didn't set in.
Many months later while in Marshall's shopping
for clothes with three of my kids, it finally set in;
I
thought “Oh my god, I saw myself weighing 120lbs and being a
personal trainer months ago and here I am today weighing 119 lbs. and
I have my personal trainer certification!!”
You need to
understand that at the time that I saw this “film strip” scene,
this was entire impossibility in my mind. I had five children in
school who I was dropping off and picking up at two different
schools, they were involved with Karate three to four times per week,
I had my normal errands to run daily, we went to church on Sunday's,
and my husband and I ran an IT company pretty much 24/7.
Where
would I find the time? How would I not feel guilty taking the time
for me? How would I stay motivated and not be too tired? Would I
really be able to do this realistically?
And here I was in
reality; now four months later, fluctuating in weight between 117 and
122 pounds, with my personal trainer certification and looking at
size 3 clothes with my kids, and in my mind looking back to when I
experienced that “film strip” scene that I chalked up to being a
fantasy.
I was now the 30 something mom and personal trainer
with a solid, little body, with five kids looking
in the size 3
junior section of clothing at Marshall's, whereas only months earlier
looking for clothes in the size 12 to 14 section, envying the woman
who were where I now am.
Oh my God, No one could have
predicted this, no one could ever have determined how this would all
play out and the sequence of events that led to it, I know I
certainly didn't.
Once in my SUV to go home, I'm thinking to
myself wow, I must really be psychic, I can't believe that I saw this
months ago.
A few years later and after experiencing a major
and devastating life changing “film strip scene” in early 2009
that would play out in real-life only 9 months later, it was through
the severe emotional trauma that I would later learn is called "The Dark Night Of The Soul" that I experienced as a result that led me to
seek out the truth to what it was that I was experiencing when I
would have these “film strip” scenes.
I wanted to know if
I was really psychic and if I could somehow see into the future or if
I could actually see events that were to come.
Before we delve
deeper into what these “film strips are”, I want you to pay
attention this; these “film strip scenes” would usually happen
when I would be; driving, cleaning, cooking, folding laundry or
ironing. Additionally, the “film strips” that I would experience,
were ALWAYS accompanied by a strong “feeling” or strong “desire”.
These scenes occurred during times that my mind was quite
calm, not focused on anything in particular and my mind was free to
wonder in it its thoughts. Somewhat like day dreaming, but much more
detailed and entrancing. I would literally get lost in these visions,
film strips or whatever you want to call them.
Eventually, my
deep desire, through severe emotional trauma led me to seek answers.
I wanted to know the purpose of life, my purpose, what the last 30
years of my life, my marriage my kids were for if it were to all end
in the way it did etc. I was desperate for answers and also for
guidance.
Apparently, it is almost always through severe
emotional trauma and life upheaval that leads a person to where I
eventually found myself;
I want to explain here that this
blog and my lessons do not involve what you may have heard as called
“The Secret”, the movie or the books.
I was however
given a DVD of the movie The Secret by a friend in 2010 who knew my
deep hurt, anguish, and desperation. coupled with my desire to
determine if I was actually psychic or not, due to so many things
that I envisioned and would play out, I connected with the movie on a
very personal level and it would eventually change my life.
For
those who may not know about the movie; the movie “The Secret” is
based on finding the ability or learning that you can manifest what
you want in your life. And, it's a good movie, but I wanted, I needed
to find out more. I wanted to know if this was real, and if it was,
where did this idea and the teachings come from.
And, so I
began a journey to the very beginning.
My journey took me to
a place where the actual ancient knowledge and the ancient teachings
come from. It is a place that the movie does not take you, and it is
a place that none of the information and video's online that teach
you “how to manifest” will teach you.
In order to learn
something well, one must have a solid foundation. And this is the
reason why so many people who try to manifest something in their life
fail to do so. It's because they have not been given the keys to
unlock the marvelous doors that are right now closed to you.
Instead, they are given some watered down information, told
to try and to keep trying. And I can tell you that you will fail
almost every single time, and until you have a complete understanding
of what this is, of what you must do, how you must do it and what is
required of you to be able to do it successfully.
You may
have guessed by now that I eventually came to the realization that I
am not psychic.
Before I go any further, I want to
tell you that I recently created $10,000.00 literally in cash. I kept
it hidden rolled up with an elastic around it in the back of my junk
draw in my kitchen of all places.
Then I began to create more
cash but in smaller increments because I thought it may be easier and
quicker to do...
Most recently, during two weeks in the month
of October 2022 I created $6,118.00 in extra cash and a cabin in Vermont. In two weeks in
the month of November 2022 I created $5,458.00 in extra cash. From
mid to the end of December 2022 I created $1,290.00 in extra cash. And I'm grateful for it every single day!!
Now the above examples are only cash, they are money
examples. But, I have created many other things too, but most people
relate to and want cash, so I figured I would use those creations as
examples of my most recent money related creations.
I will
shortly provide a list of the things that I have created most
recently. But, I really want to teach you more first because believe
it or not, you can create the unwanted as well as I have learned the
hard way and continue to learn every now and then. But the point here
is this; you are the one in control.
I don't want anyone
reading this to think everything written on this page or within this
blog is eventually going to lead you to a “pay now” button to get
more information. That is not what my blog is about and it is not
what I am about.
I'm going to give you free information here
that you can use. It's not about the money, as I have just showed you
I can create money when I need or want it quite easily. I do have ebooks and
lessons that are available to buy that can shorten the time for you
to be able to create “quicker” using certain in depth techniques,
but honestly the same techniques you will likely stumble on yourself
in time and as you progress anyway. Some within a few days, some
within weeks and some it may take many months.
The point is,
everyone has the ability, everyone can do it, and their success is
only determined by the knowledge they are taught and their own
ability to mentally focus.
I have been studying the teachings
along with Physics (because they relate) for almost 10 years, it is a
way of life for me and it is what I have become. I can control most
everything and to a powerful degree, whereas it
is said in ancient teachings; only masters can do.
I do not
however consider myself a master, although such a title that would
be. I instead refer to myself as a student striving towards mastery.
Some people are born with the ability that comes more easily
or more natural to them and others have the ability to focus and the
patience, eventually find their way, but there are some people born
who will struggle along their way and may find it difficult to learn
and will give up.
I am in the former group where it comes to
me easily and naturally. But for many years I mistook it for having
psychic ability not realizing that I was creating rather then seeing
into the future.
I want to welcome you and all of those who
are here, who really want to learn how to create what they want in
their lives, and I look forward to helping as many people as I can.
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